1/9-the allure of the internet

(I’m reorganizing my music into playlists and I need help because I can’t decide whay system I want. How do you organize your playlists? Do you go by emotion, style, artist or a different way?)

On the internet, everyone can be a nameless, faceless stranger. And that appeals to me- I don’t have to read people’s body language, tone or actions, because I suck at that and always misread or overthink. Everything is there in black and white.

There’s no way for you to know who I am. You couldn’t pick me out of a crowd. That makes me feel safe because all you know about me is what I choose to put on here. You can only judge me by my words, and not by what I look or sound like.

And I could probably put my real name and my real face on here, and it would be fine because chances are, I’m probably not going to see you in real life. But I’m not quite ready for that, so I think that I’ll hold on to my total anonymity a little while longer.

Can all of my interactions just take place through a screen? I’m already socially awkward, this won’t be too different.

Or even just typing actually, so people won’t see my face.

• Try, by Colbie Caillat. 1st part is true, image seems like a really big thing in high school and sometimes I don’t think anyone is being their true selves (I’m not, at least I don’t think I am. I look and act pretty differently depending on where I’m going and who I’m seeing.) But at the same time I wonder if they all made it to the end of the song and they are all being true to themselves and I’m the only one who hasn’t figured that out yet.
• I Do, by Holley Maher. Really wanted to put a video of this here, but I couldn’t find a good one. Please do look it up, it’s such a sweet song.
• Why Try, by Ariana Grande. Love the opening lyric- I’ve been living with devils and angels. I love her softer, slower songs.

~the short awkward one