8/30- long rambles at midnight-ish

technically it is the 30th because it’s past midnight….

k so i was reading a lot of books the past few days and i read middle school girl books and sappy rom-com style stories and sci-fi and also a bunch of movie clips and all of these have like hot, sweet, cute guys right? but these guys are made up and they’re just characters and no guy in real life is going to act like that and that makes me sad because they’re so freaking perfect like please exist but nope they don’t. how am i supposed to fall in love and have 2.5 kids (i know it’s a stereotype cliché thing and it’s the 21st century but i so so want that and at this point i see like 0.0001% chance of that happening). i should just stop living in a fantasy world where there’s always a happy ending because real life isn’t like that. fiction, you suck for getting my hopes up ok no one’s perfect and no one’s going to have the perfect life.

wow that made very little sense. anyways, here’s some songs that belong in some of those rom-com stories-

  • Like I’m Gonna Lose You, by Meghan Trainor ft. John Legend. good message, live and love each day like it’s your last.
  • I Love You Will Still Sound The Same, by Oh Honey. growing old with someone never sounded so good.
  • Falling Slowly, Glen Hansard (from the soundtrack of Once). i haven’t actually seen this movie yet, but i love the lyrics…“take this sinking boat and point it home”… and the background, that guitar and the woman’s voice with his voice is as close to perfect you’ll get without autotuned crap.


ps: i know it made no sense. just go with it, and listen to the music.


8/24- hardcore

i’m assembling this bedframe from ikea and i have a screwdriver and hammer and it’s making me feel hardcore af… so i’m listening to these songs which to you might not seem hardcore, but that’s about as hardcore as my music gets ok? ok.

  • Uma Thurman, by Fall Out Boy. some of my friends introduced me to fall out boy and that’s one of the nicest things anyone has ever done because fob is amazinggggg
  • Girlfriend, by Avril Lavigne. can’t personally relate to this song, but love the lyrics and the melody and just avril in general, who recently came back onstage after recovering from lyme disease. you go girl.
  • I Can Feel It, by Hey Violet. new discovery but omg i’m in love with this song and also all their hair- it’s colorful and messy and i wish my hair was cool like that but it’s just brown and straight and boring. anyways, it’s a fun song with nice guitar so i highly recommend you check it out!


8/22- lazy day

here’s to pjs and fuzzy blankets and mean girls and throwback movies on disney channel because lazy days are the best days! doing absolutely nothing is an amazing feeling so yeah. don’t judge me for my laziness/procrastination issues because yes i know i have other things to do, i’d just prefer to push them to the back of my mind and chill for a while to these jams~

  • I Will Be There, by Odessa. love this song, love her voice, love those notes in the background, love those beats. enough said.
  • I Want the Sky, by Lucy Schwartz. her voice sounds kinda like sara bareilles, but the lyrics to the song aren’t as repetitive and it’s just pretty chill.
  • Somebody to You, by The Vamps ft. Demi Lovato. kay so i really really like the vamps and collabs and harmonizing and this song makes me happy!


p.s. spirit animal=sloth because my laziness level is wayyy up there

8/21- summer’s end

summer is ending and i’m not ready for that because i’ve literally been a potato for these entire two months and not accomplished anything, like summer hw or sat studying. i’ve just been eating ice cream and junk food and watching movies and staying in my pajamas all day and i’m not ready for school and all the stress and problems and worries that come with it. so to bury my head in the sand and go into denial, i’m listening to my fav songs that give me summer vibes-

  • Be Okay, by Oh Honey. perfect catchy, bubblegum-without-being-annoying summer song. “i’m wide awake/so what’s the point of dreaming when your life is great/celebrate the feeling…
  • Let Me In, by Grouplove. upbeat yet super relaxing.
  • Fire N Gold, by Bea Miller. makes me think of roadtrips and chasing sunsets, not that i’ve ever done that, but what i imagine it would be like.

let me hang on to those last days of summer


8/20-pity party

everyone’s got those random sorry-for-yourself moments and i pretty much have a pity party over insignificant things at least once a day. seriously, i have a playlist dedicated to these moments. and today’s stupid little issue was…….. no one texts me first because i am pathetic. i got all excited over my phone screen like ooooh i finally got texted first and then it was my phone company saying my service was about to expire. if that isn’t pathetic i don’t know what is. and i’m pretty sure that even if i vanished off the face of the freaking earth it would take most of my “friends” at least a month to notice. and so out come the girl scout cookies and the ice cream and the playlist i wish i didn’t need.

so today’s soundtrack?

  • Say Something, A Great Big World ft. Christina Aguilera. ok, maybe a little too much. but you gotta admit, it fits.
  • Sad, Maroon 5. song title pretty much says it all.
  • Little Do You Know, Alex & Sierra. little do the people on the other end of the phone know that the road/bridge/any other communication analogy, that line runs both ways, k? it’s not a one way street and it’s not supposed to be and yet here i sit feeling like that’s exactly what’s happening.

as the title of the post promised, this was indeed a giant pity party. this was a crappy first post, i know. welcome to my shallow pit of despair. shallow because in the grand scheme of things it’s not important, but right now it matters to me and that’s all there is to it.